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Shoulders

11/28/2016

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David,

I've been taking some time off of social media for a number of reasons, but a friend told me about a post you had written. Thank you for blogging your review about The Classroom Chef. Even though it isn't the most positive of reviews, and you gave a fair warning about it, I hope that everyone gets a chance to read it. So many of your thoughts resonated with me and I felt like it would be better suited for a blog reply. First off, your bullet point summary of the book was pretty spot-on!
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You quickly made a quick pivot from a synopsis of the book to the feelings that it invoked based on our experiences as a teacher:

"I had trouble as I read this book because early on John and Matt described their early teaching experiences and it brought back a whole lot of unpleasant memories for me. Their description of the days when they felt that perhaps teaching wasn’t for them actually made me cry with my own memory of feeling the same way." - David Butler

This was tough to read. The fact that our book, our words and stories, brought up such strong memories that it led you to tears, was not something that I was expecting. The pain and the stress that my first years of teaching have embedded themselves into my memory was not intended to carry over to others, but it obviously has. To that end, I want to talk about why I was able to push through: shoulders.
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Lean (and cry) on me

As I mentioned in the book, the reason I stayed in the field of education was because of my dear friend and mentor, Mandy. Without her, you would see my name on a business card for a financial planning company, a manager of the loan department of a car dealership, or something entirely different. When I graduated from college, my degree was in Mathematics and my experience in the classroom had been a year and a half of supporting college students with their basic math course. When I showed up to my room for the first time, I was already nervous, already doubting myself, and already questioning the decision I had made. Hell, I was even stressing out about where to hang my required materials that had just been dropped onto my desk.

In that moment, papers and tape dispenser in hand, Mandy walked in and sparked a conversation. She was there to support the whole school with literacy and improving achievement, but that didn't matter to me. To me, she was there to keep me afloat... and she did.

I don't have to ponder what would've happened if I couldn't go into her room, close the door, and vent, cry, yell, or just bury my head into my hands and wonder what I was doing. 

I don't have to wonder what would've happened if I gave up trying new things, taking bigger risks, all to find out that it wasn't resonating with kids.

I don't have to worry what would've happened if I would have just kept trying new ways of teaching with the strong likelihood that my kids wouldn't love it.


I don't have to question any of that because she made it possible. Mandy came in and did demo lessons, co-taught when I asked her to, observed me and provided critical feedback, and even sent the occasional positive note and email when she felt it was needed. 

When budget cuts happen, the support is usually the first thing to go. It's a fringe benefit, and something that we haven't had in our field until recently. If we want to keep more educators in the field, David, I truly believe that we need to make them feel supported, and not just with a killer curriculum or with pedagogical pushes. We need to help them feel wanted, to relieve them when they are at their boiling points, and give them a shoulder to lean (and cry) on as much as possible. Mandy knew what it would take to keep me going, and her shoulders are the reason that mine could bear the load of being an educator.
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We all have a purpose

David, I want you to understand me very clearly: I will disagree with you very strongly if you say that you were (or are) not cut out to be a teacher. I adamantly believe that we can all find our place in the classroom with the right support. With that said, I do believe that different sets of shoulders have been outfitted for different purposes.
  • Micheal Phelps has developed the shoulders of a swimmer, and a damn good one
  • Dennis Cornelius has developed the shoulders of a power lifter, and a damn good one
  • Simone Biles has developed the shoulders of a gymnast, and a damn good one
  • Sophie Germain developed the shoulders of a mathematician, and a damn good one
  • Debbie Sterling has developed the shoulders of an entrepreneur, and a damn good one
Over time, because of (or in spite of) the support that each of those people received, their ability to outperform others reached a level that propelled them to some sort of notoriety. These are just five examples, but there are millions of others who took what they loved and made a life out of it.

For me, it was baseball. I was supposed to play pro ball, button up my Los Angeles Dodgers uniform, and squat down behind the plate as I called pitches for Kevin Brown, Hideo Nomo, and hundreds of others throughout my illustrious career in the "Big Leagues." My slim-to-none chances of seeing that dream come to reality were crushed in 2005 with a shredded rotator cuff and torn labrum, leaving me wondering what my purpose on Earth really was.

Rehabilitating my shoulder both physically and metaphorically meant the need for a strong support system and a lot of patience. 

"Looking back, I think the critical lack of support was one of the major causes of me giving up on teaching high school. Reading the descriptions of support in this book made me weep for poor past David." - David Butler


There have been times that I wept about not playing baseball, but knowing what life has served me since then makes the reality much easier to manage. My shoulders no longer help me sling a baseball to second base in an attempt to throw out a runner. They no longer help me bring the bat through the zone to drive a ball into right-center field to score two runs and help my team win. They don't carry the load of calling pitches, first-and-third plays, or squaring up to a runner coming down third base.

As an educator, my shoulders carry the load of teaching students to love learning, and hoping that the math will follow. Your shoulders might have a different purpose at the university level, but certainly not less meaningful or valuable than the one mine are employed to fulfill. 

With all this, though, please do not feel like you chickened out, that you bailed on education, or that your story is an anomaly. While unique in its path, your message is one that too many teachers have gone through. Thank you for taking the time to read the book, and for being willing to write an honest reflection based on your experience. 

Happy "Strong Shoulder" Fishing
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Matt Vaudrey link
11/28/2016 10:13:33 am

I agree with all of this.
At the forefront; by writing his post, David showed the exact type of vulnerability and risk-taking that we praise in the book. Honest reflection and unflinching earnesty get mad props from John and I both.

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David Butler link
11/28/2016 10:55:42 am

Thanks John and Matt. It was a tough blog post to write, but I felt it was important to process the feelings your book brought up, and I thought maybe others might benefit from reading it.

In the end, I know that where I am now is exactly where I am supposed to be. My experiences as a school teacher, as painful as they were, are an important part of the journey to where I am now.

I am the shoulder for thousands of students to help them cope with and even enjoy the experience of learning and using maths. I even get to support a few fledgeling maths teachers while they are students, and encourage them to love maths and learn about how others learn it.

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